I am not on the Blacklist. 
Performing and unperforming the toxicity of censorship

I am not on the Blacklist is a dance performance that seeks to investigate the toxicity of censorship in the body and in everyday life. Through practice-based research with a motion-sensor light, Hyoung-Min Kim and Gabriel Galindez Cruz explore the impact that both state-induced censorship as well as forms of self-censorship have had on their lives and their bodies. Does censorship contaminate us like noxious chemicals, imperceptible to the eye but slowly spreading the poison of self-optimisation and suppression into our minds, bodies, and behaviours? 

Through personal experiences growing up in South Korea and Colombia, the two performers recall on stage the material consequences that the supposedly invisible politics of censorship can have on those who find themselves on the “wrong” side of the hegemonic divide. Hyoung-Min’s habit of self-censorship formed from childhood experiences in South Korea. Her fears, that still persist years later and in the diaspora of speaking about this history, show the deep and long-lasting impact that censorship can have on the body and psyche. Gabriel interacts with the toxicity of censorship from an alternate angle, constructing a solo that is embedded in the power of free, unbridled speech. His attempt, doomed to fail in light of the ever-growing number, is to name every environmental Colombian activist who has been killed in the past years due to their revolutionary work. In this context, censorship has a lethal connotation, the act of killing as a way of censoring the body permanently.

I am not on the Blacklist has no definitive ending in the classical sense. Rather, it employs an ongoing, ever-mutating practice that engages with the subtle techniques of censorship in order to locate it, quarantine it, override it, and perhaps, to find creative, generative ways to interrogate it into everyday survival strategies.